Friday, January 30, 2009

Anxiety, why do you plague me?

So, have you ever had a day that you just felt insanely anxious? Like no matter what you did, you just had this feeling, this anxious feeling? Yeah, that was yesterday. Hindsight (with it being 20/20 and all) shows me that because we were running late all morning, and almost late to school, and had to scrape the windshield, and bring snack time, and sharing time, and, and, and, that's what caused my anxiety.
Wednesday morning, my eyes popped open at 3:38 am. And I was stuck. I knew that I wouldn't be able to fall asleep, and I had a lot of 'work' I needed to do in order to stock my shop on Cong-Fu. I decided to get up, and work, instead of attempt to fall back to sleep for 2 hours before my darling boys woke up. So I did everything I needed to do with Cong-Fu and then the boys woke up. And I'm pretty sure they didn't nap. (I can't really remember though, because my lack of sleep makes the whole day blurry.) Anyway, there is a point to this story. Thursday morning, the boys, amazingly enough, slept until 8:00!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! While in most ways, it was absolutely fabulous, that puts us approximately one hour behind schedule, on a school day! So I had to drag Julian, literally, kicking and screaming, downstairs to get dressed and shoveled in a quick breakfast!
He does this new thing, he doesn't want to go anywhere? I'm so confused, but it's such a battle to literally wrestle him dressed! He had snack time at school, so I had to cut up the bananas, and get the string cheese ready to go. So I finally bundle everyone up in their parkas, and then head to the car. And my windshield was alllll icy! So I had to scrape after putting my monsters into their carseats.
Amazingly, we were not late to preschool, and Julian was able to share his snack and his monkey "Henry" so the day was a success. But I couldn't shake the feeling of dread.

Today is a better day. I feel encouraged, rather than discouraged (Angela, what is the opposite of discouraged?!:))

Some cutie cute pictures:

Gabriel this morning, after breakfast, I'm afraid. Excuse the bananas

Julian fell asleep, sitting up, with his mouth open like that?!

My cheesy Valentine

And an action shot of G walking!


Heather said...

Oh my, that Gabriel is a charmer isn't he? I know the feeling of dread, it's just your body helping you out. Fun isn't it?! Try to get some extra rest this weekend if you can, and do a lot of deep breathing while you're knitting. And recite the serenity prayer over and over and over..... and let me know if it works.

Shannon said...

i am glad you are feeling better today. the boys are so cute! i love Gabriel's chub!!! i wish i looked that cute!!!

Debbi said...

Christia - your boys are so cute, I love the one with Julian asleep sitting up.

Other note: I just got an deseret news email about that sentencing in Utah, I hope your family is doing ok today. I would have a hard time with making peace like you guys have. I'll keep you guys in my prayers!

Angela said...

I love the "stupid question" part. LOVE IT!

I think even funnier than J's mouth open is the fact that his hands are practically in his crotch. What a male. :)

Jen said...

Uh yeah, been there with the anxiety. I slept better when I worked full time for some reason. At home with kids, there is always something to keep me up. I have to count backwards from 100 just to stop thinking about everything else.

And that's the best pic of J! So cute! And tell baby G to sit back down! He cannot be old enough to walk.

Melanie said...

I have that feeling where I don't want to leave the house either. Mostly it is the night before I work where I think "I am never leaving the house again. Just going to stay in bed forever." Can you come shovel me some breakfast and get me to preschool too?